A little catch up.. I miss posting.

Sometimes, when I'm just laying millions of thoughts are running through my head. Right now I'm getting reflexology done on my feet, basically a foot massage and it feels so good! I wish I has my head in Daddy's lap and he was playing with my hair softly, or he was just relaxing too, reading a book whilst maybe getting a massage too.
One day we'll get to be together and it'll be the best day ever.

People seem to be staying away this time which is great but then you still have a few which like to try with the drama.. And you know what? Fuck you.

I had a great day yesterday, we basically.. Shopped and spent a ton of money. I was a little disappointed with a few people but that's life, what more can you expect? Today we shopped again and tomorrow we'll do more.. To be honest Its starting to grow old quickly. One and a half days left at least and it's back to reality.. Although my dad and sister are off to a seminar on Wednesday/Thursday, leaves me in charge of the office. *giggles evily*

Anyways.. I don't remember where I was going with this but I guess it will do.

Hope you're all well.. Well the people that matter anyways :)

His mine. There's no drama.

I'm happy, he make me happy as much as I make him, he's the first person I've ever been able to open up to, ever in my life as I like to keep very closed up and not let a lot out. He knows everything about me, he knows every ex, everything that happens on my day to day life and I trust him with ALL my secrets and with my trust.

It hasn't always been perfect with him and we both have our ups and downs but we work together, we talk and we sort whatever the problem is out. This man means the absolute world to me an without him I'd be completely lost.

It's the 26th today, that means my birthdays tomorrow.. And as I sit here on the plane thinking 'positively' even without him being around it will be a perfect day and at a later date I'll get all the attention I need from him. I bet it'll be special, hehe.

There's not a moment of each and any day that passes that he's not on my mind, he's a beautiful man with such a kind heart. And to think that he works till so late at night but always finds time to come online and tell me that he's okay. What else do you need, to make you smile?

- Angel

Story Time..

Once upon a time, there was this evil website and obviously a lot of people online, I think it had something to do with sex but i'm not entirely sure.

Magically these two people started, one a guy who we shall call Daddy and one a girl, who we shall name Angel. They spoke for a few hours..she had a big smile on her face, happy that for once someone just didn't want to get into her pants. Things developed further and they made their way onto Yahoo Messenger where they spoke pretty much every day, things eventuated and they were both happy.. after a few weeks, she became his sub, his pet and him her Sir.. she was extremely happy that they were finally together because ever since day one, her feelings had grown and grown for him, although he did not know.

Soon after this, pet had gone on vacation to the United States and Sir was having some personal issues, while she was away things had ended between them, to give him some time to figure it out, in this time pet was very upset and didn't enjoy much of her time away as all she could think of was Sir, how much she wanted to see him, be with him and how much she wished to be in his arms. It was a very hard time for her and she was devastated. Her trip continued and three and a half weeks later she was back home, they were talking every day and still incredibly close, in her opinion, more than ever. She cherished him as a best friend, as someone she could talk to whenever and about whatever, she trusted him with everything and he was always there for her.

During the weeks after pet being home, she got into another relationship with another guy, in this time Sir was still there, not as Sir obviously but he still cared for pet, like she was his own, he gave her all the advice she pushed.. and in the end asked for and was always there no matter what happened, looking after her, making sure she was okay and that everything was going as best as it could. Soon after that ended a week later due to issues on both sides, Sir and pet were still extremely close, she never forgot him, a day never passed where he wasn't in her mind, he meant the world to her and he always has, she's always had and kept that special little part of her heart for him.. each and every day her feelings grow more for him.

Moving along, after that relationship with 'the other one' Sir soon became Daddy and pet became Angel or little gurl.. His angel and His little girl. She was extremely happy to be his again, that empty part in her heart was filled again and things got better and better until soon after Daddy began having a few issues. This, till this very day tears his angel apart and she feels so lost and helpless, his words travel through her head every day.. "Everything will be okay" but she misses him a huge amount and she feels so empty without him. She cares so much and to see him hurting sucks. Tonight Daddy and Angel spoke on voice and he sounded so scared, so upset.. it hurt her so much that.. all he had to say was " I Miss You" a few times for her to break down and be in tears.

Her feelings still grow for him, every day.. You could almost say love, but maybe that's too strong for now... She craves him, his voice and the way he treats her, it makes her feel complete and like he's the best thing in the world. She just wants him to be happy, she wants them both to be happy together instead of.. worried and hoping that everything will be okay, she wants everything to be okay and everything to be perfect. She'd love nothing less than to be in his arms while they're wrapped around her.. she knows that he'd love that too.

She just wants him to know that she's always here for him when he needs someone to support him most., and if its not as his litter girl, its as his equal.

- Angel.

hehe..

*whispers.." "*

Just incase you were wondering..

I won't be blogging anymore.. or at least you lot won't be seeing it. (unless its something meaningless and rant-y.)

The End~

Happy?

A feeling I haven't felt in such a long time.. and to finally feel that its amazing.

<3 Angel.

Confession.. 026

I'm going to become a Nun and settle alone.

Things.. that make you go,

People.

Sometimes, people are incredibly annoying, I have no time or patience for anyone or anything, It may not be so much the peoples fault but I guess mine in the end, I lose any time or patience i had at the beginning so super quick. I'm so over everything lately, I'm over peoples bullshit and excuses.. I just want, whatever it is so be blunt and straight out there. There's no need for sugar coating, along with that.. I really don't give a fuck.. or two.

Life is at a good point for me right now, there are no 'official' relationships and as much as I want one, I don't really need one.. I'm happy where I am, I know that I have people who care for me and will always be there, I have a person (s) that makes me incredibly happy and smiling, all the time even if I don't like to admit it.. I'm happy here. Wherever here may be.

I'm still so incredibly confused and lost, but I'm a teenager, what else would I be? Hehe.

Life is okay, outside of work now that all the drama is over..

As for work.. When I'm in the right mood I'm sure a nice angry post will come..

I must go.

Happy Days.

Relating to the person mentioned in this post.. I decided to write another.

Simply starting with..:-

Happy Birthday!

You, my lovely one, deserve the best day one could ever have, I honestly wish I could have been there to do all I could to make it maybe a little bit better, but I guess I'll just do what I can from oceans away... (I think I already did that.. *insert small, bratty giggles here)

I don't take back any words mentioned in the last post I wrote about you, for a good while we've been talking now and I honestly have not regret one day, from that little hard few.. weeks to now it has all been a journey and one definitely worth going through.

You are an amazing guy, you know all the right things to say at the right times and I consider you one of my best friends. You had helped me through rough times and you have always always managed to put a smile on my face.

Again, I thank you a million.. for everything that has happened and we have both been through together, without you I honestly have no idea where I would be right now.

This may be a bit repetitive and soppy.. but Thank you.. I couldn't have asked for anyone better to have began talking to me that day...

Once again.. Happy Birthday.

p.s. that guy i described on yahoo to you... was you.

- Angel