Quote...006

Everybody tells jokes, but we still need comedians.
- Jimmy Wales



Assume.

People seem to be using this word a LOT as of late, every time i hear it.. it's like reliving a bad moment or having a bad dream. In my opinion, ones should never assume, if you have no proof and things are just supposed to 'happen' like that.. you can't suspect that they'll always be like that.. you know?


We all go through life, living day by day, taking things how they come and we deal with them as best as we can. We live our own life, and no one else's.. we all have ideas of where and who and what we'd like to do and be with but EVERYONE's different and everyone has their own ideas, therefore when one thing leads to another and then it moves on to the next sometimes for certain people things don't work out.. it all in the end comes back to the 'one'.


A lot of the time, we just want to feel loved and to be with someone that loves us.. the finding the 'one' take s a lot of time and most of the time, they'll meet you half way.. its just one big waiting game in the end.. and we just have to live on the fate of knowing that one day, this important, special person is just right around the corner..


It is incredibly weird how in the end everything comes down to 'loving' and love in my posts.. but it just seems to be the best way i can describe and explain things... including the conversation i'm having with someone right now.. they decided to use this A word.. and i freaked out a little.. so i used that as a reference to this. Freaky, i started writing this first! 

Confession.. 019

 ..That moment when you logged out and went to bed.. I was two steps right behind you...

Tunes #4!!

I'm sexy and I know it!!

It has been sooo stuck in my head for the past week.. i can't get it out!

Quote.. 006

I find it fascinating that most people plan their vacation with better care than they do their lives. Perhaps that is because escape is easier than change. 

- Jim Rohn

Confession.. 018

I Don't Mind If You Follow My Blog and I Don't Know you!

:)

I don't have a title.

Seems today Blogger's yelling "USE ME, USE ME!"

I'm kinda just lazing around.. lots of thoughts and emotions are running through me at the moment and I'm feeling a little lost, although its always a good time to reflect on things that have happened, friends, people that have come and gone and also  the people that continue to hurt and push you away, yet you continue to keep them around. I posted a status on facebook earlier and it went something like this..
Which I do believe is true,

"It really makes me wonder what people are truly like, you can never know, because when they're with you.. you can be best of friends and then when they aren't they could be the biggest bitch. isn't it a shame these days that you can't trust anyone? half the time, not even your own family."


Which I do believe is true, half the time when you need someone to be there for you, they aren't and you end up just floating around like you're on a stormy cloud instead of just flying through the sky on a normal, fluffy one, going along for a ride. Anyways, there was a point to this post and it was to talk, mention about Love, people that care and people you can tell that they just don't give a fuck.

I have this friend, yeah he's online.. but he means a lot to me, just like I know I mean to him. I care, and it hurts to see him fight through something that might not work out positive, the thing is.. you can't argue with him because he'll just take her side and he will listen to what I have to say but it'll just go through one ear and out the other.. I really hope I'm wrong about her and that she is the girl he really wants, the one that's right for him.. because to see people you care and love hurting, hurts.

You know, we all go through these stages and I personally know what it's like to like or love someone that doesn't have those same feelings back, or they say they do but their actions don't show it, they make excuses and justify things to you to make it seem okay, so you believe it, and it looks okay on your side but if you step out and look at the big picture, or it finally hits you one day when you realise you've just waisted your last two years waiting for another person.. its like you've just walked into a brick wall face first.

Its not a great feeling for anyone but it is part of life, it's something we all do go through at once stage or another unless you're like some pro and are able to get everyone and anyone you want at just one glance, sometimes things take time but other times its not worth the fight because it won't go very far.. i guess this is something we have to sit and decide, make the choice for ourselves... even if that means friends have to be there in the end to pick up the pieces or support you through each and every choice.

Remember this.

Tunes #3!

Oh my, I didnt know what it means to believe
Oh my, I didnt know what it means to believe

But if I hold on tight is it true?
Would you take care of all that I do?
Oh Lord, I'm getting ready to believe.

Oh my, I didn't know how hard it would be
Oh my, I didn't know how hard it would be

But if I hold on tight is it true?
Would you take care of all that I do?
Oh Lord, I'm getting ready to believe.

Then we'll be waving hands singing freely
Singing standing tall it's now coming easy
Oh no more looking down honey
Can't you see me?
Oh Lord, I'm getting ready to believe

Then we'll be waving hands singing freely
Singing standing tall it's now coming easy
Oh no more looking down honey
Can't you see me?

Oh Lord, I'm getting ready to believe
Oh Lord, I'm getting ready to believe
Oh Lord, I'm getting ready to believe

The 'Evil' One.

You make me worry about you.

sometimes it feels like this.

Every day I wake up and pray for you to be online to I can talk to you, to make sure you're okay, you make me want to fly over and just give you a hug, hold you and tell you it'll all be okay. You honestly have no idea how much I worry about you, every second of every day. Even if i could be there, just to sit on your shoulder and be your parrot *insert giggle here* and just, sit and look 'pretty' as you'd say.

God i hope you're okay, you have no idea how much you mean to people in every day life, things may be hard but we can always get through them, and if you mean nothing to anyone else, to me.. you mean the world, you're one of the best, best friends anyone could ever ask for, you're always there, you always care and you always listen.

I don't know if you can tell how worried I am from just reading this, but I hope you do, I hope you can see how much you mean, even if it's just to me.. I hope, pray that you're okay because without you.. I don't know.. Ugh! you'd be proud.. I even attempted to speak to 'her' to get some sort of answer and maybe get in more contact with you.. but she didn't answer her freaking messages! (oh she replied..6 hours later)

Alright, before I start, well continue to ramble..
.Please.Come.Tell.Me.You're.Okay.

Hang on, be strong.. because you can make it through, and you can be the winner.

..Apparently you're okay..

I thinkk...

These guys.. 

Are just as hot as these..

That's all.

Cuddles.

It comes to a point, where all you want.. is to be held, to be cuddled and to be loved..

That Moment is Now.

Feb 14.

... Happy Valentines day...

Americans...

It is a bit long but it is defiantly  a good read. haha.

<ihateboston> yo
<Rahhh> boston hates you too
<ihateboston> noooo
<ihateboston> it loves me
<Rahhh> lies
<ihateboston> how is australia?
<Rahhh> its great, it loves me, but it hates you too
<ihateboston> do you lov the kangos?
<Rahhh> wtf is a kango?
<ihateboston> i like how they carry the young around in the sack
<ihateboston> kangoroo
<Rahhh> you mean a kangaroo?
<ihateboston> yes
<Rahhh> oh yes, we use their pouches as beds
<ihateboston> you do?
<ihateboston> you sleep in the big ons?
<Rahhh> yeah
<ihateboston> ones*
<Rahhh> they're really comfy.
<ihateboston> thats cool
<ihateboston> do you have sex in them
<Rahhh> its a bit gooey
<ihateboston> id do it
<ihateboston> do they walk around alot while you are sleeping or fucking?
<ihateboston> or hop around
<Rahhh> yeah
<Rahhh> they do
<Rahhh> its a bumpy ride
<ihateboston> sounds fun though
<ihateboston> do you keep them in your house sometimes?
<Rahhh> of course, we ride them into our bedrooms and use them as our beds
<ihateboston> and put them in your other bed and slp in them
<Rahhh> no they are our beds
<Rahhh> they sit in the corner
<ihateboston> ok so you dont have a bed for them to sleep in?
<Rahhh> sleep at the same time
<Rahhh> no
<Rahhh> they stand
<ihateboston> hmm, you should get them a bed, or atleast a chair to prop up in
<Rahhh> no
<Rahhh> they stand.
<ihateboston> I understand, but dont they get tired?
<Rahhh> no
<Rahhh> that's just how they are
<Rahhh> sometimes they lay on the side and you look all sideways
<ihateboston> what do you feed them?
<Rahhh> carrots
<Rahhh> steak
<ihateboston> kangaroo steak?
<Rahhh> yeah, they eat themselves O.o
<ihateboston> thats gross
<Rahhh> yeah could you imagine sucking yourself or something?
<ihateboston> ya i wish
<Rahhh> do you?
<ihateboston> i had kangaroo beef jerky one time
<ihateboston> do they talk with an accent too?
<Rahhh> yeah, they sound so hot. i fap to them every night.
<ihateboston> do they ever have sex with eachother while you guys are sleeping?
<Rahhh> no - we'd get get killed from all the rapid humping
<ihateboston> ok how do you stop them from doing it?
<Rahhh> they sleep too i told you
<ihateboston> oh ya
<ihateboston> thats fun
<ihateboston> have you ever been sleeping in one and it dies?
<Rahhh> no
<ihateboston> do you have to use the same one, or can you get a different one every once in a while?
<Rahhh> can you stop asking questions? you're hurting my head
<Rahhh> you're just jealous, aren't you?
<ihateboston> ok im sorry, im just very interestd and yes i am
<Rahhh> how old are you?
<ihateboston> 23
<ihateboston> im going to come visit aus some time, it sounds exciting
<Rahhh> You know how you have greyhound races?
<ihateboston> yes
<Rahhh> Well we have Kangaroo ones, but the jockeys, the rider guys are INSIDE the kangaroo's.
<ihateboston> that is cool
<ihateboston> im surprised you even have cars, you could just get around using them and save the environment
<Rahhh> They paint racing stripes down the sides.
<ihateboston> bullshit
<ihateboston> now you are lying to me
<Rahhh> But its illegal and so far underground that the races are like those dog fights.
<ihateboston> holy shit
<ihateboston> you would not want mike vick getting a hold of those poor creatures
<ihateboston> you dont put racing stripes on them though, no way
<Rahhh> red makes them go faster, no shit
<ihateboston> if i owned one of those, i would never get out of the sack
<ihateboston> until it died
<ihateboston> and i would get a new one
<ihateboston> what is the life span on one of those suckers
<Rahhh> well
<Rahhh> its a bit hard to go to the bathroom while sitting in your pouch
<Rahhh> your shit doesn't come out of his arse.
<ihateboston> id poop in it and scoop it out later
<ihateboston> and just stand up and piss out of it
<ihateboston> or diapers
<ihateboston> or make a little tube that comes out the bottom with a suction that sucks it all out, i would need to cut a little hole in the sack
<Rahhh> you can't cut a hole, it'd hurt the poor thing
<Rahhh> bleed to death
<ihateboston> what if i had a surgion do it though proper
<Rahhh> no
<ihateboston> its that sensative ,hmm well make i would just use diapers than
<Rahhh> well, that's always some good humiliation
<Rahhh> shitting and pissing on yourself
<Rahhh> how hot
<ihateboston> ya but i would throw them out of the sack after i was done everytime
<ihateboston> or i could probably just stand up and stick my ass out of it
<ihateboston> and do my bussiness
<Rahhh> then you'd get shit stuck to it
<Rahhh> and it'd always smell
<ihateboston> ya but i would always take it for a bath
<ihateboston> and scrub it
<ihateboston> and alot of body spray etc..
<ihateboston> and fill the pouch with flowers
<ihateboston> to keep it fresh
<Rahhh> flowers are way too pretty for that
<ihateboston> I would dress my kango too, with a suit and tie
<Rahhh> you serious?
<Rahhh> that's way cool!!
<ihateboston> ya def, it would be styling, so i could go to weddings and stuff in it
<Rahhh> bull shit! that soo can't be true.
<ihateboston> me and my wife would both get married in our kangos
<ihateboston> when we want to have sex, ill let her slip into mine
<Rahhh> that's nice
<ihateboston> i know, what do you do for fun
<Rahhh> ride my kangaroo
<ihateboston> besides that
<Rahhh> brb
<ihateboston> ok
<ihateboston> ill miss you
<Rahhh> i'lll miss you too, so will my kangaroo
* Rahhh hops off
<ihateboston> your kango would like me better than you i bet, i would feed it snacks all the time and fosters beer

<ihateboston> I would get hammered with my roo all the  time
<ihateboston> and go booze crusing
<ihateboston> hop back  on


*** ihateboston has gone offline.

Confession.. 016

Sometimes I see you talking, but I don't really care because what you have to say isn't important at all.

Online ..#2.

Ah Man, some people really know how to fuck things up for themselves and then they go into victim mode, its like.. they have done nothing wrong but everyone seems to be angry at them. I know online people over react over small things and in the end it usually gets sorted out.. but some things just can't be forgotten.. some things should have never been done in the first place and other things.. you sit, tilt your head and look at the person like.. what the fuck. I think this whole issue, and the people that know about whatever has happened could relate or understand what i mean but, the whole issue is just crazy, its insane and some people really need to grow up.

When you're online, its best to keep to yourself and stay out of the drama, we all know this, but sometimes it just can't be helped.. its either your group of friends, or one person in the little group of people or its sometimes happening through a whole room. the one thing you have to remember is that everyone online has their own opinion.. and some people like to voice theirs louder than others.  Anyways moving back onto the topic of which I wanted to talk about which was about females/males and relationships all together.

Online relationships don't work.. as long as you try and try they never turn out unless people make frequent visits to see each other, they require a lot of trust and its a lot of trust to give/put into someones hands that you have never met. Moving along, it seems that because people are online they seem to like to take people along for a ride, its like a female, since she gets all the attention, wraps a guy around each and every one of her fingers, tugs them along and watches to see which one will fall off first, its not just this, but when someone finally 'catches up to her finger' and wants to jump on, she's then sitting there thinking "oh fuck!" but then its already too late because the guy wants more.

Its not just the females that are online that do this shit, the males do as well, although that's what I used as my example.  It's crazy to think that anyone that's married would want a relationship online, outside of whatever they already have, considering their partner probably doesn't know.. but I guess whatever they decide to do is their choice and its their life in the end. I truly wish people would stop stringing others along to the point of no return, I wish they'd stop hurting close friends and other people online that deserve more or better.. I still strongly believe that married people should not be online and that they should be off being a wife or a mother to their kids.. or a father to their kids and a husband.. but i guess its each to their own.

It's irritating me that i'm ranting about online and the shit that happens when there's so much to do in real life.. but online is part of my life (yeah i know..) but you do, you make friends, you grow close to people, you like people, you do this and you do that.. it doesn't mean you have to fuck with people's heads and the weak-ones hearts and then go off crying, whinging and bitching to others when things go pear shaped. If you put yourself out there and you do these things, prepare to be shut down, to be noticed and to be ridiculed.

-end rant.

Birthday Holiday..?

Confession 14..

Its Official..

You're an Idiot!

It seems a lot lately I've been falling out with certain people.. sometimes its not things they have done and other times they've just simply fucked up, there's no nice way to put it.. of course, I don't expect you to change.. but neither does that change my opinion of you....

- end rant #2.

Online

When do you know when to stop? When do you know when you've invested too much into things and whether or not you should get upset or angry, or when you should just ignore things and move on?

You know, you ask yourself these questions and you can answer them easily.. but when you spend time online and make 'friends'  as you would call them and you generally care as the person you are..  of course you'll get upset or angry when they're strung along and played with.. I mean its what you'd do in real life, is it not??

There are problems with being online.. and married people seems to be a big one for me.. fair enough if you go on to chat and make friends and just pass a little bit of free time.. but to sit online and fuck with peoples heads, along with also.. 'fucking' them too literally in a sense of words.. well.. let me get rid of all of that.. if you're married you should have no spare time, if you have kids you should be off running, playing, spending time with them.. not wasting it online wrecking other peoples lives.. 

Moving right along.....

The next thing I hate most is liars... if you're going to sit online and whinge and bitch about millions of other people.. at least make sure you're not one of them and you're not just as worthless. there's nothing worse than people that make friends with everyone.. sit there and specifically make sure to be on the best side of everyone until they come across those few people that see straight through them, that can see exactly what they're like yet they still pretend to play dumb.. i mean yeah its online and its filled with all these pathetic people.. but not everyone is as pathetic as the last.. sorry honey, some people were born with brains.  

The next.. is about all those people who try to be someone else so they can make sure to keep everyone happy.. its online, be yourself.. if someone hates you who gives a fuck, the block button works and i'm sure you know how to ignore people... life moves on and so do they! At the end of the day its that little red X that closes the window, everyone and all the drama is gone.. big deal if one or two people hate you, let them, life moves on!

Yes, something has really annoyed me tonight, yes I might have over reacted or maybe I am too emotionally attached to the people I generally care about.. but in the end.. I'm not there to fuck you over, I'm not there to be the bitch everyone hates.. I'm not there to make you pay for the decisions you make in your life after all that's your choice..  I don't want your drama and I really don't give a fuck.

- end rant.

Tunes #2!

I Think..

He's my Knight in Shinning Armour..

Coming to save me.. One day soon..

Meaningful.. 017

They Tell Me.. You're so Stupid...

Only problem is.. You Prove them right.

Givin' Up

I think I give up with everything and everyone..

It's gone back to that time again.. that horrible fucking time.

Meaningful.. 016

Sigh.

what is wrong with me???

One day without him is like forever, I miss him an incredible amount..

I hate those gut feelings.. you know what you should do.. but you don't because you wish something else would happen instead.. fucking fucking fucking.

I'm hating life at the moment, big time.