Sometimes,

I can't handle holidays.
Too much family drama.. and when the day actually comes, magically they put smiles on their faces and all is good and dandy.

Fuck you, all.

The end.

Merry Christmas

I hope you all have a fabulous day and it's filled with joy.

Merry Christmas.

Feel festive and stuff.

Fuck..

Christmas.

So totally not interested this year.
Over it.

Chilling

In the pool.

What is that feeling?

It's really odd, for me to be able to talk to someone and to walk away feeling like I want more, like I crave that person, like I really want to be talking to that person. Usually when I talk/type whichever context it may be I walk away and think "eh, that was alright" this person, which I shall not name, or even nickname for the moment.. Talks to me.. and leaves me waiting and wanting.

I don't know what it is about this person but it drives me completely crazy, we can talk for 2, 3, 4 or even 5 hours and when they log off, to go to work, I lay in my bed wondering. I don't know how healthy this wondering is, but I guess for now it's okay. This person spends the time with me, that any real friend would, this person doesn't judge and is always there, no matter what crazy shit I have to say.
This person, is only recently a new friend, but I hope this person can stay friends for a good while.

Fingers  crossed and things with this friend could be great. If only things stay as they are, and everyone is happy and on the same page, this friend could be around for a super long time.

Because they're worth it.

No living, no.

Sometimes, I wake up and I don't feel like living. It's not like I feel like killing myself because its not like I haven't thought about it, I would just never do it. I simply just feel like turning the other way and curling back I to my pillows. Ignoring everyone and everything that comes across or happens.

Normally when I wake up like this, I am incredibly grumpy, which seems to be the norm for me lately. But I just don't get it. Nothing ever seems to go right and at the last second always takes a right turn. It's like yay you had your two weeks of happiness BAM you don't deserve this anymore.

Either or. I think I'm really over it as of late.
This is the last week of work, with staff here and then it's all the holidays.. Eventually it'll be five weeks time and I'll be going away for two. It should be great.

Other than that. There isn't too much more to say.

The end.

hm.

When should one give up..
When should one move on..

No writing..

Because, well.. I just simply don't know what to say.