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Hi.

So..

Yeah.

That's just life.

Feeling lonely.

I believe that feeling lonely could be one of the worst emotion a person could ever feel. There's nothing worse than jumping into bed and laying down and your mind just not stopping.

No matter how many issues there are during relationships there's nothing better than knowing that, that person is always there for you and is there when you need them..

I hate feeling lonely as much as I hate the pain that has been in my arm for the last month or so.
I wish I could just switch my thoughts off, curl up and sleep tight.

..

I feel like writing, for once in ages and my arm is fucked.. so this is all it'll be.
<3

Hmm..

I haven't updated recently.. no, no I haven't.
I don't really know what to say and I don't know if this place is a good way to explain the frustrations in my life. Things are going fairly well I guess. If you'd like to ask more, comment in a way that i can reply and that isn't anon.. preferably with an email.


that's all. :)

People

It sometimes makes me wonder, when i look at the full picture and the people that i have around me, why they're so stupid.. and why they always make themselves the victim instead of being the bigger person. It's like certain people in my family, grow old in age but their mental age got stuck at like 13. It's all petty high school bullshit that they obviously never grew out of and it's driving me insane.

Why it was made that we could choose our friends but not our family, they do say that certain people are put into your life for a reason, and to teach you lessons but i look around and think.. "these people are fucked up." It's like, life was ruined for them, everyone is out to make them miserable, facebook is a big deal and family is horrible. No one ever treats them right but.. lets cry over spilt milk when other people are dying.

These people don't take into account the big picture, they don't step out of victim mode to take a fucking look around and all they do is whinge, bitch and mope around like they're the only ones in the world that are hard done by and they never do anything wrong. I totally wish i was in the position to step up and say something but being only a 'child' i can't say shit. I wouldn't even give a fuck if they never spoke to me again but all this shit is so hard to deal with.

I don't think I'll ever be able to understand and to be honest, i don't even know if i want too.. but i wish they'd just grow up and deal with things like an adult would and not a high school student. I wanted to say more in the post but I'm just so tired and lost for words that this will have to do..

goodnight.

Omg!

It's snowing!'

I..

Leave tomorrow morning.
Woohoo.

Hehe..

Three more days of work.. Three days of packing..
Then we fly out!!

Not long to go now..

Noooot long to go now! Ten days to go now.

10 days till i leave australia and head back to the US.

Can't wait to get away for a while.