Long Distance

I'm not a fan of long distance relationships, I believe that loads of people go into them so they have something, in the moment. Its a 'now' thing now a 'furture' thing for most people and therefore people go into them expecting them to stay online and just keep that person as someone they can be close to and always have around.. even if it isn't physical, it's someone they can talk to and feel comfortable with, without exposing themselves completely.

Most people online have such negative outlooks on online relationships and I totally understand why, how and whatnot but when you're trying to do something and get somewhere, it becomes very taxing and very irritating. The only way I would get into a long distance relationship is..by meeting the person, preferably him coming to me.. him putting in as much effort as I would, lots of general talk about multiple things, also meeting in an area around/with other people for the first time. Then I would only continue things with this person if there were ways we could see each other fairly often, by this time either one of us could do the flying.. and then after that step and a fair bit of time it'd only go further if the effort being put in is still the same, feelings are still the same and one person would move counties/states etc.

You don't truly know if you love someone until you meet, you don't know how things will go until they are standing in front of you and you've touched them. Anything could happen, the person could be fake, they could be some serial killer and what not, so until the steps above have been completed you can't fully 'fall in love' or know this or know that about a person.

I totally forget where I was going with this, but I guess my point was that relationships can begin as online and in the end they can end up as a happy ever after. Negative/judgemental people give me the shits, especially if they've never given anything a chance or even stuck their noses into the wrong place.
In the end it is the person who's doing its life and they can do as they wish. Just be happy for the person, be supportive and keep your own crap to yourself.

I thinks that is all.

Scurrrred.

Shit's getting real.

 

 

uhm..

My Grandfather, pisses me off.. to the point of not wanting anything to do with him anymore.
Everything that happens is pathetic, everything he does makes me angry, he doesn't even realise that.. at the end of the day, if anything is to pull anyone apart or tare anyone apart it'll be his fault.. it'll all be his fault and he won't even give a fuck.

that's all for now.

uh..

These horrible nights of waking at times I really shouldn't be is beginning to really cramp my style.
I wonder if my body realises that whole nights of sleep are better and therefore I would't be go grouchy.

I guess Mr Dreamy makes up for it, I'm quite the happy and content kinda girl for now, no matter which way this goes.

Ah well. That's all for now :)

Gotta love,

 Laughing fits till you can't breathe no more, for no apparent reason.

Sometimes;

I wish I had what I lost, all that time ago.
I wish he was mine and I was his, but sometimes this can't be helped and you forever miss him, even when you've moved on.. Or attempted to.

*shrugs*

Gone

So, today was I guess.. interesting. I don't quite understand how people react and how people speak to each other in our office.. It's like.. sometimes things are all peachy and sometimes there's that much tension in there that you can cut it with a freaking knife. It is, incredibly so freaking incredibly annoying, so hard to deal  with the people and the attitudes that are constantly running hot and cold.

Last thursday this particular staff member wasn't there for the day and the whole atmosphere in the room, was like, almost amazing.  It makes me really wonder what the fuck people are thinking and it really makes me wonder what this girl thinks and how good she thinks she is. She's like a person with a huge ego.. such a big head that you just want to take a pin and pop it.

Moving on from her, our lovely-huge clients contract ran out on friday and we're now into our last week of just the hand over, because dad has a heart and can't just walk away *snickers* I helped her (did most of) put all the paper work in boxes and even hole punch each month to archive.. and she basically not even said thank you and didn't acknowledge any of it. If I hadn't done it, none of it would be done and none of it would ever get done, but this isn't my problem now.

Tomorrow, they come to pick up the paper work and I think they're all incredibly stupid.  It hasn't yet realised in their heads that as soon as it is all gone, like including all the 'current' stuff that I put into the box today, there is no work for her to do in our office, meaning that.. by the end of the day they will be practically gone and I may never have to see her again.

This news, is incredibly exciting.. I'm sure I'll update again soon, but I'm honestly glad that the light is almost blinding me.

:)

Floors

It feels so damn good, to be back in my bed and to sleep through after spending two nights at the grandparents.

We got our floors done over the weekend, insurance job due to water damage and because they had to sand it all back and then coat the floors again, due to the bad smell of the paint we had to go out. leave. gone etc :P

Anyways, Mum isn't quite happy with them, so i'm not too sure what's going to happen but the house still smells *drops my head*

Fingers crossed they have a solution because its monday, and our staff need to work... another weekend out of the house? :/

Swooon...

There is, such high potential..

 

I'm swooning, dreaming.. Sooo much right now..

 

*blushes*

Wednesday...

And I haven't been to the gym all week?!

I think, this rash has been the worst happenings of all ever, Its pushed me into the ground, pretty much and it is driving me completely crazy... and lazy!

Its frustrating when you've gotten into a specific pattern and you know it will be so much bigger and better for you.. and then something comes along and its like STOP! DON'T MOVE. its sooo fucking frustrating, the fact that I've been sitting here, sleeping here and I can't do anything but keep myself cool.. I'm sitting here.. and its not even 9am yet, my body is freezing and my face is warm, although a little of my left cheek has cleared up (thank-god for this) and hopefully the tablets the doctor gave me are working... Only just hopefully very fast.

At least by next week I'll be back on track. 

Compromise?

This is a big question, sometimes, Also a question that a load of people get wrong, it shows when someone is being selfish or when they're thinking of the other people around them as well, it shows how well people listen to what's being said and how they understand it and how they go about things.

I think compromising is hard, it is for anyone because people are people and people always want what they want. People don't like to give a little here and there, when they know that it will benefit another person because they're completely stubborn.

I think compromise is incredibly important in work situations, along with families and pretty much every day life. I think that it is incredibly annoying when people don't compromise and are incredibly selfish and I think that people need to wake up a little bit to see things.

Lets go for an example, the last three days now, I've had an ugly rash on my face and if I don't keep cool, it flares up and I can't do anything other than loose concentration and focus on the itching, the first day I suffered in the office, pretty much walking out for most of the day to pass out on the couch with an icepack on my face, the second day I had put a fan on, I'm not a small girl so it was basically only hitting me, on the lowest setting there is. If there was no fan the day would have ended up similar to the day before and I'd still have gotten no work done.

Sooo.. on second day, the girl next to me.. who clearly doesn't know what clothes are, was wearing the strappiest dress on earth and she complained that she was cold. The options were, turn the fan lower (it was lower) turn it off... (yeah right) or to move it to the other side.. (pointless because it only hit my leg) so what was I supposed to do? Turn the fan off to make her happy when they KNOW its an air-conditioned office but refuse to bring jumpers? Or continue along my way and keep working with the fan on?

Well, as usual.. she got her way and I ended up taking piles upon piles into my room of paper work that I could do, to get it done and then save some time at a later date. I mean it all worked in the end but the fact that she complained about it, pissed me off. It's never on and it's never like that, my face is never this fucked up and needs air, so its usually okay..

But in the end it makes you wonder what goes through peoples heads, what they think, what they know, how they think things should be and how much they enjoy aggravating you.. Oh wells, in the end she'll be gone, gone away with all the drama and I honestly can't wait till she's gone.. OOoh and also she'll be cut down to less days a week because, y'know give people more time and they get less work done *rolls eyes* 

They never use their time wisely. They're given more time to meet deadlines and they just pussyfoot around. Its incredibly pathetic for a job that they're getting paid for.. and to have a father that has to deal with all the complaints, it gets a bit much. Anyways, these peoples will be gone soon, so lets leave it at here.

:)

Fuck, Fuckity Fuck!

Omg. Huge lesson tonight - Eating healthy really DOES go a long long way.

So its been.. 3 and a bit weeks now that i've been on my healthy eating plan and also gyming it, and I've felt a huge difference in the way that I feel, in the way that I wake up, how I spend my day and also act around people, I've started to notice that around my face and my stomach, I've lost a bit of weight and maybe toned. I honestly am starting to feel great.

When we go out, there is no big need for me to have breads or carbs, three weeks and I haven't had pasta, or rice. I've had the tiniest bit of potato and bread and very, very few soft drinks. maybe two? in the last three weeks. After the initial.. first couple of days of trying to get off the shit being eaten.. and the withdrawals its great, I think. When you go out you look for the healthier options, like a salad instead of a burger, add some chicken to it instead of adding bacon and what not to the burger, etc and you just feel better all round.

Moving on from food, I think.. i'm almost.. just almost addicted to the gym. We (sister and i.. sometimes mum and a friend) go almost every night.. its like routine now, you finish work or leave early, get ready, jump in the car, usually pick the friend up and off you go. Its what you almost grow to expect and if it doesn't happen its like O.o.. what's missing? Its quite scary, but i guess.. three weeks so far.. and its probably the most I've ever used the gym membership. I guess I'm paying for it this time :P

Tonight we ended up going out for dinner.. and I think it was the worst idea ever. I've been eating meat and pretty much green veg, for dinner ever night and I honestly love it, I've yet to get bored.. and I cook my food pretty plain so there isn't many sauces but there's always always always plenty of flavour.. andddd.. Tonight i had ribs and salad.. and the sauce, from the ribs made my stomach go upside down.. From not having anything like that to even just a little.. I swear its the worst feeling ever.

So, Tomorrow's a lovely new day.. and I don't plan to be going out for dinner again any time soon if it makes me feel this horrible again. I'll happily stick to my salads, my veg and my protein.

`On the way to a 'bigger,' better, smaller, hotter me :D
That's all for now :)