People

It sometimes makes me wonder, when i look at the full picture and the people that i have around me, why they're so stupid.. and why they always make themselves the victim instead of being the bigger person. It's like certain people in my family, grow old in age but their mental age got stuck at like 13. It's all petty high school bullshit that they obviously never grew out of and it's driving me insane.

Why it was made that we could choose our friends but not our family, they do say that certain people are put into your life for a reason, and to teach you lessons but i look around and think.. "these people are fucked up." It's like, life was ruined for them, everyone is out to make them miserable, facebook is a big deal and family is horrible. No one ever treats them right but.. lets cry over spilt milk when other people are dying.

These people don't take into account the big picture, they don't step out of victim mode to take a fucking look around and all they do is whinge, bitch and mope around like they're the only ones in the world that are hard done by and they never do anything wrong. I totally wish i was in the position to step up and say something but being only a 'child' i can't say shit. I wouldn't even give a fuck if they never spoke to me again but all this shit is so hard to deal with.

I don't think I'll ever be able to understand and to be honest, i don't even know if i want too.. but i wish they'd just grow up and deal with things like an adult would and not a high school student. I wanted to say more in the post but I'm just so tired and lost for words that this will have to do..

goodnight.

Omg!

It's snowing!'

I..

Leave tomorrow morning.
Woohoo.

Hehe..

Three more days of work.. Three days of packing..
Then we fly out!!

Not long to go now..

Noooot long to go now! Ten days to go now.

10 days till i leave australia and head back to the US.

Can't wait to get away for a while.

Sometimes,

I can't handle holidays.
Too much family drama.. and when the day actually comes, magically they put smiles on their faces and all is good and dandy.

Fuck you, all.

The end.

Merry Christmas

I hope you all have a fabulous day and it's filled with joy.

Merry Christmas.

Feel festive and stuff.

Fuck..

Christmas.

So totally not interested this year.
Over it.

Chilling

In the pool.

What is that feeling?

It's really odd, for me to be able to talk to someone and to walk away feeling like I want more, like I crave that person, like I really want to be talking to that person. Usually when I talk/type whichever context it may be I walk away and think "eh, that was alright" this person, which I shall not name, or even nickname for the moment.. Talks to me.. and leaves me waiting and wanting.

I don't know what it is about this person but it drives me completely crazy, we can talk for 2, 3, 4 or even 5 hours and when they log off, to go to work, I lay in my bed wondering. I don't know how healthy this wondering is, but I guess for now it's okay. This person spends the time with me, that any real friend would, this person doesn't judge and is always there, no matter what crazy shit I have to say.
This person, is only recently a new friend, but I hope this person can stay friends for a good while.

Fingers  crossed and things with this friend could be great. If only things stay as they are, and everyone is happy and on the same page, this friend could be around for a super long time.

Because they're worth it.