Crave..

To want.. to need...

The last few days i've been driven a little crazy, by my own thoughts.. all this.. stuff? running through my head, no way to stop it or to zone out.. struggling to fall asleep again.. even a night spent running through the dark side (read 'the dark side' to find out more..) honestly, the day after that night.. i freaked out. I don't want to go through all that again, those thoughts and all that.. torture if it needs a label. It was all hard enough the first time.

There's a few people.. that keep me sane and i owe them a big big thank you, especially to the ones that worry, and also.. to the ones that go through this journey with me.. and don't leave but make sure they're always there and always available to talk to, to take my mind off things as best as they can.. the ones who know when it's the right time to engage me in a long, deep conversation.. that could be about nothing much and the only reason.. is to take my mind off things..

Also a huge thank you to someone.. who sent me some amazing audios.. without them, some nights would be spent laying awake and frustrated.. all damn night! .. probably have more to say about you.. but this shall do for now.. a big big thank you!!

Hmmms i was going to write more.. but since this blog entry has been open and half written on my computer all day.. this can be enough for now.. and all boring with no pictures too :D