Long Distance

I'm not a fan of long distance relationships, I believe that loads of people go into them so they have something, in the moment. Its a 'now' thing now a 'furture' thing for most people and therefore people go into them expecting them to stay online and just keep that person as someone they can be close to and always have around.. even if it isn't physical, it's someone they can talk to and feel comfortable with, without exposing themselves completely.

Most people online have such negative outlooks on online relationships and I totally understand why, how and whatnot but when you're trying to do something and get somewhere, it becomes very taxing and very irritating. The only way I would get into a long distance relationship is..by meeting the person, preferably him coming to me.. him putting in as much effort as I would, lots of general talk about multiple things, also meeting in an area around/with other people for the first time. Then I would only continue things with this person if there were ways we could see each other fairly often, by this time either one of us could do the flying.. and then after that step and a fair bit of time it'd only go further if the effort being put in is still the same, feelings are still the same and one person would move counties/states etc.

You don't truly know if you love someone until you meet, you don't know how things will go until they are standing in front of you and you've touched them. Anything could happen, the person could be fake, they could be some serial killer and what not, so until the steps above have been completed you can't fully 'fall in love' or know this or know that about a person.

I totally forget where I was going with this, but I guess my point was that relationships can begin as online and in the end they can end up as a happy ever after. Negative/judgemental people give me the shits, especially if they've never given anything a chance or even stuck their noses into the wrong place.
In the end it is the person who's doing its life and they can do as they wish. Just be happy for the person, be supportive and keep your own crap to yourself.

I thinks that is all.

Scurrrred.

Shit's getting real.

 

 

uhm..

My Grandfather, pisses me off.. to the point of not wanting anything to do with him anymore.
Everything that happens is pathetic, everything he does makes me angry, he doesn't even realise that.. at the end of the day, if anything is to pull anyone apart or tare anyone apart it'll be his fault.. it'll all be his fault and he won't even give a fuck.

that's all for now.

uh..

These horrible nights of waking at times I really shouldn't be is beginning to really cramp my style.
I wonder if my body realises that whole nights of sleep are better and therefore I would't be go grouchy.

I guess Mr Dreamy makes up for it, I'm quite the happy and content kinda girl for now, no matter which way this goes.

Ah well. That's all for now :)

Gotta love,

 Laughing fits till you can't breathe no more, for no apparent reason.

Sometimes;

I wish I had what I lost, all that time ago.
I wish he was mine and I was his, but sometimes this can't be helped and you forever miss him, even when you've moved on.. Or attempted to.

*shrugs*

Gone

So, today was I guess.. interesting. I don't quite understand how people react and how people speak to each other in our office.. It's like.. sometimes things are all peachy and sometimes there's that much tension in there that you can cut it with a freaking knife. It is, incredibly so freaking incredibly annoying, so hard to deal  with the people and the attitudes that are constantly running hot and cold.

Last thursday this particular staff member wasn't there for the day and the whole atmosphere in the room, was like, almost amazing.  It makes me really wonder what the fuck people are thinking and it really makes me wonder what this girl thinks and how good she thinks she is. She's like a person with a huge ego.. such a big head that you just want to take a pin and pop it.

Moving on from her, our lovely-huge clients contract ran out on friday and we're now into our last week of just the hand over, because dad has a heart and can't just walk away *snickers* I helped her (did most of) put all the paper work in boxes and even hole punch each month to archive.. and she basically not even said thank you and didn't acknowledge any of it. If I hadn't done it, none of it would be done and none of it would ever get done, but this isn't my problem now.

Tomorrow, they come to pick up the paper work and I think they're all incredibly stupid.  It hasn't yet realised in their heads that as soon as it is all gone, like including all the 'current' stuff that I put into the box today, there is no work for her to do in our office, meaning that.. by the end of the day they will be practically gone and I may never have to see her again.

This news, is incredibly exciting.. I'm sure I'll update again soon, but I'm honestly glad that the light is almost blinding me.

:)

Floors

It feels so damn good, to be back in my bed and to sleep through after spending two nights at the grandparents.

We got our floors done over the weekend, insurance job due to water damage and because they had to sand it all back and then coat the floors again, due to the bad smell of the paint we had to go out. leave. gone etc :P

Anyways, Mum isn't quite happy with them, so i'm not too sure what's going to happen but the house still smells *drops my head*

Fingers crossed they have a solution because its monday, and our staff need to work... another weekend out of the house? :/

Swooon...

There is, such high potential..

 

I'm swooning, dreaming.. Sooo much right now..

 

*blushes*

Wednesday...

And I haven't been to the gym all week?!

I think, this rash has been the worst happenings of all ever, Its pushed me into the ground, pretty much and it is driving me completely crazy... and lazy!

Its frustrating when you've gotten into a specific pattern and you know it will be so much bigger and better for you.. and then something comes along and its like STOP! DON'T MOVE. its sooo fucking frustrating, the fact that I've been sitting here, sleeping here and I can't do anything but keep myself cool.. I'm sitting here.. and its not even 9am yet, my body is freezing and my face is warm, although a little of my left cheek has cleared up (thank-god for this) and hopefully the tablets the doctor gave me are working... Only just hopefully very fast.

At least by next week I'll be back on track.